THOUGHTS AND ADJUSTING

I've been trying to figure out today how it all works. I feel stressed and then I feel lonely. We decorate for Christmas and make plans knowing everyone will be coming home. The kids come home (after snow storms and bad roads and missed flights) and I spend a few days adjusting to having someone else in the house besides Bill and I. I finally relax and then two more kids come home along with a son-in-law and a grand baby. More adjusting but loving every minute of it. The time approaches to start taking down the decorations and the kids slowly start trickling back to their own homes. New Years Day we said good bye to Emalei and Fabio as they head back to Switzerland. It was sad walking away from the airport after taking Dane and Bridget back. I had to say good bye to sweet little Ella.(well I said good bye to Abbie and Scott too) Oh how I loved bathing Ella and feeding her and dressing her and playing with her. Now they're headed back to Virginia. Dale is the last one left home and he leaves on Friday. The house seemed to be busting at the seams for a couple of weeks and now it is so quiet. The thing I feel the worst about is the fact that we didn't take one picture of all of us. The whole family was together and not one picture. What is wrong with us. Abbie is trying to get set up with photography as a side hobby and Emalei got a brand new Nikon camera for Christmas. Oh so sad that we don't have one picture. So.....this is a boring post with no pictures. Bill and I will be alone again once he gets home from work Saturday morning. It's back to Bill and I in the house. I'm so glad I love being with him and just being together. Life has taken on a different perspective now that the kids are gone and married. Bill and I love our time alone together but love having the kids come home. Here's to a good new year.